sickly me

Ugh!am v. sick.. I'm sniffly and my right ear is plugged up, everything sounds muffled. I don't have time to get sick.

my tonsils are killing me..

but i gotta work..

alice and gragra are sick as well..

i hate the weather..

contemplations

the e-lib is perhaps the best part of school after the i.d rooms.. it's a place where you can surf non-stop for free (well technically..it's not for free coz it's been paid for in advance..) trust me and my friends to hang out here the entire afternoon and not be bored..

ryt now jaimee's beside me.. we don't have pinoy which is a good thing coz it's the most boring class.. am lukin forward to seeing my bebybie today coz we didn't get to see each other for 2 days... wat a sickening feeling..

i dunno wat to say now except dat m feeling much lazier than i usually am..

was freaked out during my bus ride in the morning to see the guy beside me with cuts and bruises on his wrist.. why do people resort to suicide and self-inflicted pain?

i had to say a silent prayer for him before i got off at the next stop..

it's a sad world.. nobody can ever judge another person for doing unimaginable things such as that... sometimes i wonder why life can be so cruel.. a few minutes outside my home would make me see the bitter side of life..

but enough of that.. ders mor to life than sadness and pain...

my life's not perfect either.. but seeing other people's pain just made me realize

...life's not so bad as it seems..

morning ya'll

i just finished my paper for moral theology which i just posted here as well

it's very timely coz it's Ramadan day (i just realized it now)

am currently home but i might go out later to get some stuff..

i've been craving for coffee jelly but they probably won't let me drive since someone got killed yesterday and my parents have gone paranoid over the littlest things..

like last saturday.. it was just 1 am and my mom kept messaging me to go home.. at that very moment i was busy staring at bamboo ( he was at in vino)..

sis treated me to dinner at red crab and i soon felt dizzy since i had to eat most of it (she's allergic to seafood) we were having dinner at 11 pm and we were the only customers left.. that was kind of awkward...

jus before that i was with my baby.. we kind of fought earlier during the day but that's over.. am so sorry again.. :c i hate it when we fight.. and about last night.. i guess i was just really sad for not getting to see you.. sorry if i was grumpy...

im just missin' u badly... dat's why..

sadly..chauvinists exist

Several Greenhills homeowners associations launched a campaign and issued a letter to oppose the construction of a mosque in their area. They said this would result in security problems and higher crime rate.
This issue has gone so far that the Catholic and Protestant Church leaders have supported the Muslims saying that these Greenhills residents were speaking from prejudice and ignorance on Muslim culture and faith.
Within Virra Mall, Catholic prayer rooms have already been constructed. Why can’t a Muslim prayer room with tiled floors and an aircon be built as well?
If we base it on Ramon Reyes’ definition of morality, the Greenhills residents who opposed the construction of a Muslim prayer room would not even fit the deontological moral theory which is concerned with laws and obligations. Religious tolerance is the order of the day not only in the Philippines but in the Vatican as well. Instead, they took away the Muslims’ right to their religion and practice. If they can’t fully accept the Muslims, they should at least remember that they have a moral duty to respect other religions. As a matter of fact, we are all called to live harmoniously with our Muslim brothers who have long been stereotyped and lined with terrorism and insurgencies. We must learn to co-exist out of love for each other and for our God as well.
Jacques Thiroux says that morality deals with how humans treat each other to promote mutual welfare , growth, creativity, and meaning in striving for good over bad and right over wrong. In this world full of differences, it is still possible to attain unity, peace and progress. Though we take on different routes, growth and development can be attained without stepping on one another or pulling each other down. The residents of Greenhills have claimed that the mosque will be the cause of business downfall and the sudden influx of gangs and criminals. How can we achieve unity if we think like this towards our neighbors? Why do we treat our neighbors like criminals when we are called to live in mutual respect with one another despite our differences in gender, race or religion?
It is a pity that these residents circulated fliers around containing insults against the Muslims. Not only have they caused pain to our Muslim brothers but they have heightened the tension that everyone wishes to turn into peace.
Each one of us has a right to glorify our God. Everyone must be given the chance to express his faith. However, nobody among us can speak wrong of another’s religion, whatever our reasons might be.

princess muffy.. gej at the background

in the woods.. hehehe

me..moimoi..so happy together.. c:

not enough sleep??

wanted: food massage

right now..

i want a foot massage.. shit.. make it a body massage.. im so tired.. and so is gragra.. poor baby.. she's been helping out in every way she can.. thanks for that.. 18 days to go before our big day.. ;)

there are lots of things that need to be done.. however.. there's nothing u can do when procrastination strikes..

am supposed to be working..

am not..

at this very moment...
i just realized..

i hate my life...

love..love..love...

love is nothing but an illusion.. illusion that could bring both pain n joy to those entrapped in it.. after loving.. there will always be pain n memories that u could neva forget left in ur heart.. when the person u loved wif all ur heart leaves one dae.. dun feel too down.. its not the end of the world.. Coz nothing stays forever.. its always better to hav loved n lost.. rather den not to hav loved at all..there will be four people you will meet in life.. life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life..first person is you..second person is the one you love most..third person is the one who love you most.. and the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.. in life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels.. because you know how love feels, you can find the person who loves you most..when you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most.. then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.. sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.. the one you love most doesn't love you.. the one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.. and the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most..she is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.. which person are you in other people's life..??? no person will purposely have a change of heart.. at the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.. but when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore.. when he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't.. same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.. when a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you.. you must ask yourself if you still love him.. if you also don't love him anymore..do not keep him just to save your pride.. if you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride. if you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.. if you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him..and if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart..??? love is not possessive.. if you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin..but the moonlight still shines upon you.. in other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person.. let her become a permanent memory in you life.. if you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.. love her for him good points, and the bad..you can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him.. if he can't change to become what you like him to be, you should accept the real him, n not still expectim him to change..when you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him.. you only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.. real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.. in a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.. being away from each other is a type of test, if the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.. real love will never become hate.. when two people are in love.. they love to ask each other to swear, to make promises.. why do they ask each other to swear and promise? because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover.. these swear and promises are useless; "till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!" we all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry.. even if it does happen, are we still alive by then? be careful when making promises; don't make promises that you cannot keep.. swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually.. remember, "Swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!" which person have you found so far..??? in the world so big, which person have you found..??? and who has found you..???

the alarm clock's ting-a-ling ringin' in my head!!!

sembreak's been great but reality bites.. it's back to work and school again.. i encounterd a lot of brouhahas today.. everyone was so upbeat but my energy level wasn't so high.. at least not until i was with alice and jam.. that's when our little chaotic world started to spin again..

gragra was waiting for us at powerbooks so we met up there and ate lunch.. licia and i had to go back to school for the dreaded GOMZ subject and it was another one of those nerve-wrecking sessions that slapped us n the face right on the first day.. why did d sem have to start wid a thursday???

life's unfair.. but we might as well use this opportunity for a good head start...

my baby's got 5 new puppies.. congratulations blacky... c:

il lounge for a while.. i miss my baby already...

soulsearchin'

I am back at chon’s place for the day.. it’s nov. 1, my grampa’s 10th death anniversary..

I got home yesterday and slept the entire afternoon cause I was sick for a day or two.. the last thing I wrote about was about us leaving the house and all that shit and just the other night I got a text from my mom saying that it’s probably best if she’d just sell the house since nobody was interested to live there.. being the prodigal daughter that I am, I just reversed the story and made them look like irresponsible parents.. First of all, they had no idea I was burning with fever and I calmly replied that I have been sick for more than 24 hours and they weren’t home so nobody could look after me.. the following day, she called me up to say that they got home from our other home (this is confusing.. but our other house is in batangas) and was indirectly asking me to go home..

but where is home anyway? I haven’t felt at home in ages..

last night, I was with lala, ken, cecil and greg at figaro.. I brought muffy along since my sister was working her butt off here at chon’s place for the design of the spa she’s handling.. (actually im supposed to be helping her right now but I just might doze off like her if I don’t take a break..) so basically, I spent the evening with a lawyer, an architect and 2 advertising people..what did we talk about? we talked about our childhood, our stupid pasts, our plans for the future.. time flies by so fast..among the people I was with, two would be married to their partners in the next 4 months, the other two just hooked up and became a fresh couple… and then there’s me--- I’ve managed to realize one thing… love certainly is universal.. in a world where there are over a billion fingerprints, personalities and professions, two people can actually meet and fall in love..

anyway, I went home with a feeling of contentment at the thought of having a great partner in life.. so many people search far and wide for that one person they can spend their lives with.. and me? I’ve found that love exactly 3 years, 11 months, 1 week and 4 days ago..

so who cares if life at home sucks?
at least I’ve already found a home in another person’s heart..

when the nest becomes empty

Im ranting coz I didn’t see my baby today..

Tough day..

First, sis asked me to take care of her business while she’s gone.. I got there only to realize that she gave me the wrong key… sigh…

So here I am at home moping around feeling blue.. ma jus made me clean out the crisper and since I had nothing to do I did so without even starting an argument..

Things have changed around the house.. it’s just amazingly clean for starters.. all the drafting stuff that I left in the living room were all gone by the time I got home.. they have begun putting up decors for the holiday season..

Perhaps my parents have started to feel that their kids are finally starting to settle down on their own.. We’ve all been particularly busy with our own little lives.. Slowly but surely, we’re leaving the comfy nest and drifting farther and farther apart.. Talk about the emptiness stage..

It’s a good thing however, that my bro, ken, is going to have a baby.. at least they’ll have a grandchild soon.. surely our soon-to-be nephew/niece would be spoiled rotten.. I also realized that it is a miracle that they are having a grandchild this early.. jay wouldn’t probably start having kids till his 30’s.. with gej.. it’s questionable..

I’m sure however, that they wouldn’t have one from me.. hehe..
time to call my baby..

later.. =)

sembreak's been great and i haven't been home for quite some time. been staying at a friend's house in bf for mor dan a week now and it's been great.. it keeps me from distractions and worries that i don't want to bother myself with... gej's board exams are coming up in 2 days and i can feel her fear.. i have been dogsitting muffy for her ever since my break started.. here's what ive been doing for the past 2 weeks:

1. wake up in the morning
2. open the door for gra2
3. cook
4. give muffy a bath
5. take a bath
6. eat
7. eat some more
8. watch infomercials
9. watch dvd's
10. eat again
11. say bye2 to gra2
12. internet
13. watch some tv
14. take a shower
15. sleep

dis week i also went to see chi and whamos (congratulations for passing the board..tnx for the treat) so there.. i've been spending each day wid gra2 and its been great..

this morning, by surprised me by showing up.. someone was tugging at my arm and there she was..with flowers and chocolates.. now dats really sweet.. she rode her bike to get to me.. so damn sweet.. i can't get over it.. i'm still so in love ... =)

sis, chons and i went to mass then grabbed something to eat at a veneto where we also met up with a client.. sheesh i ate 2 slices of pizza.. 3 pieces buffalo wings, some fries and a humongous burger that was really really tasty...

right now.. im doin the CAD drawings of the spa my sister's working on.. its not yet done so i have to go for now.. il blog some other time..